...and realizing they aren't what you want.
For around eight years I’ve wanted to become a fashion designer. I’ve thought about creating everything from a wholly organic line to avant garde wedding gowns. I could feel it inside of me. This is what I was meant to do. But recently, that’s changed.
I’m not necessarily lost. I just don’t know where I’m going. I’m assuming this is the point where some people give up and decide that since they cannot decide, they just continue what they’re doing. But, this is where a person needs to think about what they want. Whether it takes a day, or months, or years, it will come to you. Having a dream is important. One cannot accomplish without a dream. A dream gives you meaning, focus, and ambition. It drives you.
When I think about what I want to do, thoughts cross my mind such as being a member of Destination Truth, studying big cats, and owning my own company. These ideas may seem ridiculous. Then again, so many ideas do until put into motion. Sometimes, you just need to believe.
So, here I am. Working my full time position doing things I never saw myself doing and enjoying it. I’ve discovered some new hobbies. I make origami stars, take cooking classes, and go to the movies by myself. I have new driving factors leading me to branch out of my comfort zone.
I’d say things are falling into place… but I’d be lying because they aren’t falling — I’m putting them there.